Step Two: All is Well, If…
Step Two of AA “Can help you have a relationship with a power greater than you and access the power that you need to thrive in the world. You might, however, still find yourself wanting to fall back into control – or what you thought was control!”
I know that I once thought control was being able to do drugs and drink, and still be able to recite the ABC’s… A few years deep, and I no longer possessed that thought process, even though I still possessed an addiction. A Heavy one at that. On drugs, your personality dwindles, your ambition lingers, your motivation drives away… And so do all of the one’s you love. You push them away. You push to push, you push people away to spend time with the drug. It’s a personal relationship in itself. Like the “Baltimore Love Song” (50-Cent). It’s a love hate sort of thing. But it’s predictable. And life, life itself, is not. At all. We have to accept that. That which we cannot change… and begin focusing on what we can change… ourselves.
The phrase “ALL IS WELL” refers to the fact that “Life is constantly falling apart, and then offering us the opportunity to experience the full depth of what it means to be human. When you are settled with deep faith in the inherent goodness of the universe, invite our life to fall apart. You will be okay. You will be okay because ‘all is well’.”
This phrase reminds me of Karma. If a man does his best, what else is there? If your sole intent is always good, what you will get in return in life will come back, three fold. That is my belief. I believe in Jesus, as a Christian, and I’m deep rooted in my belief’s that The Lord is my Savior – I pray everyday to God. It has become second nature… And now, so has praying in a sense, to say thank you, I appreciate all you have done for me. Through god I try to carry out his word, and by that I mean, just be a good person. There are only two in this world, good and bad. What are you? What do you want to be? What are you capable of becoming? So be it.
“I do not have to fix everything?” ‘No, you do not have to hold all of the pieces in place. All you need is to believe and trust. No matter how your outside life is arranged. No matter how crazy the world seems. All is Well.’ “All will be well because all has always been well. The Truth does not depend on you to be the Truth. And that Truth is the essence of Step Two. The essence of life.” ‘You have not worked Sep Two, Dan. You have no faith that everything is going to be okay. You need to go back to Step Two.’ “While your experience with Step Two may have started with recognition of a power greater than you, it blossoms into faith, then a belief, and then a knowing that tells you no matter what, ‘All is Well.'”
“When I came into the program I had a tiny God, now I hae an awesome powerful God that I listen to and do my best to “pray” attention to.” – Joe P. “You may call it Love, Truth, Nature, or Higher Self. You may have experienced it as Money, Sex, Drugs, or Fame. Regardless of how you name it – this power greater than you has been with you throughout your life, though perhaps with defferent faces. The Big Book tells us:
‘…For deep down in every man, woman, and child, is the fundamental idea of God. It may be obscured by calamity, by pomp, by worship of other things, but in some form or other it is there.’
The key is realizing that, whatever this power is, you are not it.”
Getting even to the Second Step of Sobriety and finally realizing that there are doctor’s out there to help, there are alternatives than the streets, and there IS a way out to the misery of drug use/abuse/addition. When you get down to the root of everything and cut out your drug of choice that renders you weak to feeling emotion, you being to break down. Bit by bit you fall apart and it’s up to you to put your trust in someone else’s hands and let them take over the dosing and counseling (mental aspect of it all, also referring to the community aspect as a whole for recovery; and its importance.) That was the hardest part for me was to trust someone else and to let them take my control away, my drugs away, and rely solely on their care. It’s still a hard thing to come to terms with today. However, since I haven’t been what we like to call “Dope Sick” Since a couple months into the Clinic, I have faith. I have faith in god. A strong faith in god, as he lead me in the right direction when I chose to do the right things. I could feel that powerful feeling of helplessness and I could feel that powerful feeling of hope. Nonetheless, all I had was determination… and that’s what keeps me “Praying attention” to God. Second by Second, Minute by Minute.
“We eventually became increasingly isolated and lonely. We created more walls, and we created more masks to wear. Eventually we came into recovery where we were told that if we do not get honest about our fears, our insecurities, and the problems in our lives, we will not stay sober ‘Take off the masks! Tear down the walls!’ they say. But How?”
Through Faith, Truth, Honesty, Perseverance, Determination, Put Your Life Before Your Pride, Put Your Life in God’s Hands and you will begin to experience what it’s like to become you again. A whole new you. The real you.
Quotations From The Book: “A Man’s Way Through The Twelve Step’s”